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21 April 2016 @ 11:16 pm
This is easily my favourite anime or at least on the tops list, albeit not having watched many myself.
I have so much overflowing emotions, it's the kind of show that will stick with me for a long long time.
I chionged it within around 2.5 hours even though I'm supposed to study now, but this is the kind I think is heartwarming and worth the time.
It's what will make me just really want to share and post about it to conclude my feelings.

To Apr '16 half-month. <3
24 March 2016 @ 10:23 am

I suddenly wonder what being emotionally hungover is called. Pensive?

Anyway, here's Mar '16 full-month!

18 March 2016 @ 12:07 am

I've been trying to sleep since 10.20pm and here i am, awake. I might have given up just for a short while to sleep, before I get back to my bed. I will Google on possible reason(s) for why I can't sleep.

Anyway, I'll just post a random song from 1999 that comes into my brain right now. I've seen a Buzzfeed video that seemingly random thoughts are not so coincidental sometimes, so who knows, maybe when I look back at this i'll know why.

Crystal Snow was born from my flowing tears
From one drop to the next one, then starting to disappear

Risking on an instant light of human life
There’s nothing left to say, so I close my mouth tightly
In a silence, feelings that I ignored begin to freeze …

You won’t see the white impurity, because it’s snow
It’ll soon gone
You won’t see the white impurity, because it’s snow
It’s easy to leave a wound on somebody

Quietly creeping in, in the end I become worry
Innocently I think I’ve overacted when I thank you
With a small sigh, leaving white prints
I can’t move in a locked world
And my hand become completely chilled
Can’t feel warmth anymore
And I begin to freeze …

Before I knew the meaning of being born
Everybody’s worry of not surviving anymore
People’s laugh is being wasted away
Totally confused – need help laughing

The gathered falling snow
Even as a proof of your living, the left white begin to disappear

Somewhere far out there I can hear the little boy’s voice
Footprints of white snow …

Regardless, cheers to Mar '16 half-month!

Current Location: Hall
Current Mood: Troubled
02 March 2016 @ 02:42 pm

After watching Youtube for like, four straight full days, I'm tired (of it). I had four days to myself, so it's really kind of from the moment I open my eyes to the moment I close them. Imagine how many hours that is. I now just want to switch things up with work. Usually I can do things for long once I start, sometimes with breaks and sometimes without, but this was just basically saturation. I don't even think I want to be eating and watching anymore. I may just probably sit down and eat quietly. I do things to the extreme, I know, it's either I don't or I do it to the max till I'm done or I crash, whichever comes first.

I'm gong, or blur now as some will say, but I welcome this peace and end.

Current Location: Room.
Current Mood: stoned
29 February 2016 @ 09:26 pm

OMG like finally. I'm not sure why, if it's because I can't find enough information and articles on it without social media, that I don't feel like the hype is enough yet. Like I feel empty after waiting for this for so long :O

Congratulations with all my heart, what a long-awaited moment.

Happy Feb '16 full-month!
Current Mood: touchedtouched
(I will update this for any errors when I finish the show)

Basically you already know that Empress Ki is a pseudo-history drama because duh, for the sensationalization, ratings, and filling up numerous spaces that can't be by those mere few lines at every stage in all history books. But look what I found, with some things that spoiled the amazing collaboration between Tuotuo and Consort Ki:

  • The Bayan removal coup was staged purely by Emperor Huizong and Tuotuo, without mention of Consort Ki at any instant. So ok, this collaboration detail can technically be added because there's nothing to dispute it either.

  • BUT always remember, Empress Ki DID NOT STAGE IT.

  • Emperor Huizong did not die immediately at the Bayan coup.

  • The rebellion was staged by Red Turban Rebellion, not his personal eunuch and Empress Dowager. So, no extreme drama there in real history.

  • And I will supposed that Eagle Rock Traders didn't exist at that time either, for that.

  • This is the part that gets T.T . Basically Empress Ki supported that stupid kid Ayushiridara in falsely accusing Tuotuo for corruption, for some useless, jealous enemy. For fear of betrayal, Emperor Huizong really stripped him of his dignities. This was around a decade down the road after the Bayan coup. WTS.

  • He was poisoned by the enemy eventually while in exile. F this.

  • Empress Ki is CORRUPT. Around the same time as she supported the false accusation of Tuotuo, she had a personal office just to impose tax for her own personal use. Her family in Korea had the same behaviour as well. No wonder they were all killed eventually by King Gongmin. Good decision.

  • King Chunghye, which Wang Yoo was based on, was a ruler famous for abducting, killing and raping women. Very negatively different from the image he has in Empress Ki. And no, I don' think Consort Ki and him were ever romantically involved. Again, this detail can be added because there's nothing to dispute it. BUT then again, he really did come to Yanjing after being overthrown by previous king Chung-suk, indeed to release Goryeo from Yuan control, and became her trusted confidant. Hmm, fishy.

And these are other real details that are either commendable or interesting:

  • Tuotuo really was an amazing historian that served the country smartly and loyally till the end. How charming.

  • Tuotuo has a father. Yes, to remove details, it has never been mentioned in the drama, but he returned to Gansu around four years after the Bayan coup/being the Great Chancellor to be with him. He was sick, because come on, he reversed all those mistakes, which in my opinion, is harder than trying to create something new and grand.

  • He gracefully accepted the decree (肚量真大!), and ordered his troops to listen to the new commander. But of course such a legendary person has tons of loyal supporting soldiers, and they left, being unhappy.

Current Location: Hall
16 February 2016 @ 12:14 am

I'm just so bad at Chinese history. Ok like I mean relatively bad, much much leseser than what I want to know and what I expect myself to already know. I do think I won't fare as badly as a handful of people out there. Anyway, I couldn't even confidently list the sequence of all the dynasties, but now I can, at least the main ones. I can kind of state briefly the borders by who's the main tribe/race/people in that dynasty, but every dynasty always has small parts that break away, those are the one that I cannot point out more than a few. I used to study this briefly back in CCH. I still have the two-part series, of which the second one hasn't even been touched at all my by school =.= But for years I had set a goal to read them, they are still in my bedroom. I will, it's just how long i'll take to get there. I'm reading the Pig book now, you know.

Credit all these to Empress Ki man, what a beloved, precious show. I'm not at the end yet because no, I never go faster than the TV. It's just my habit, like I can watch it on the TV when I want to, and bonus, together with my mum. If I had watched it already it's like spoiling the surprise + rewatching it, which I know some people do so, and by their words, they need to, becuase they will forget the contents next time. I don't.

And Jin Yi-Han is just so damn handsome. I haven't checked out more than like, five of his modern photos yet, or rememeber at least five of his modern photos. But damn.

Let's put a smiley face as opposed to his usually cool image in the show! :D

Happy Feb '16 half-month!

Current Location: Hall
07 February 2016 @ 01:15 pm

It seems like the target beneficiaries of this programme are (incomplete) families in psychological difficulties or senior citizens living alone. In other words, old beneficiaries. I can see where they are coming from when one of the volunteers mentioned that sometimes, those who chooses to be financially independent, all they want is a word of concern; those who live alone, all they want is some company. I don't know. I've been trying to prepare for old life, and I didn't think being alone would be an impact on emotional health. Keeping oneself fulfilled and inspired has no relation with physical loneliness. However, it's been years that I hear this saying about no partner and craving for human interaction. It's getting to me slowly, I can see it being a possibility to change my mindset bit by bit if this continues. I don't want to change my mindset though, because looking at being alone and something sad, that itself is such a sad thought. Like, who subscribes to that form of self-looking-down? Somehow ok, the more I type, the more I'm getting back that idea that at least part of these 'old and lonely' people can in fact not feel that way with mere changes in lifestyle, and more importantly, in mindset. It's not easy, but with the determination and zest they have when they are younger, they can, with rejuvenation, reach even greater heights.

Happy Lunar New Year everyone :)
Current Location: In My Room
Current Mood: Contemplative
31 January 2016 @ 02:29 pm
I cannot really remember what has happened in the past 1/2 months in detail other than a few key events. I feel like i'm just floating in life now, as usual or abnomal, I don't know. But lol, I made that a note that i'll write this.

We have been having multiple tutors in a module, and one of them is hmm, cute or sort of. YW agrees haha. Then apparently this baby-faced is married already! :O Was still wondering if he's attached or what. That escalates x)

And I did some makeup that day. Thank you a number of girls that complimented, and thank you to not one guy that complimented. Smh. Ok someone did notice that I spent effort on doing it, but that's that. I'd rather take it that I just don't seem good-looking enough witht that up-do, than have any post-comments from brainlesses saying how they don't dare, wanting to prevent misunderstandings, or am embarrassed to give compliments. Go f themselves, those people.

And happy Jan '16 full-month!
17 January 2016 @ 01:44 am
I guess they have both actual facial features, eyes and smile, and bright images that makes them look really similar.
Althought I have to admit, I do see Naeu as what knetz would describe at times, the pig face look, but I don't get that from Wendy. In this context, pig face does not indicate ugliness, plump physique etcetera. Rather, I found descriptions for this term, by comparing Wendy and Naeun, to see what brings out this difference.

I realized:
1) Naeun's nose bridge looks just ever so slightly curved, so it appears that her nose becomes like a continuation to a snout.
2) Naeun does not have jaws as defined as Wendy, giving a round impression.

Other than these reasons and Wendy's dimples, they can literally have a high chance to be mistaken as sisters.

Wendy                                                           Naeun

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: tiredtired
15 January 2016 @ 01:24 am
I haven't posted ever since the holidays started, not even once omg lol.

I had wanted to post on the last day of 2015 to continue the tradition of the Lay post, but had never gotten around to do it. Busy ironing clothes, you know. I also wanted to start the year's posts with something positive, or at least neutral, so I'm still holding certain topics first. I don't want to schedule posts either, since I find the manual editing of the date very unnatural, as the time passes every second so it's hard to mimic the exact moment as when I post a truly current, now-written one.

But in any case, I finally found some understanding of why one of my facebook friends, P, was doing what he did. It's not something that I can't just post it one fb, but I guess I just don't want to make it awkward for him to read it and knowing that my update/status reaches exactly this amount of people too. I finally realized when I chanced upon this website, trafficlight.sg.

P basically bought around 9000 followers on instagram, or so he is being accused. Hence, his count dropped from 10000 to 1000 after the purge of fake/insctive accounts of the company, which to me is still an amazing number. Just why, I wondered, was he so interested in putting himself out there, way beyond what he is achieving, even going through unauthentic means? Isn't being recognized by the dozens, or hundreds, that always liked his posts enough?

Turns out there's a specialized social media outreach company, name as mentioned above, that has only Indian influencers in their list of 'celebrities', which refers to a signed group of people that are very popular on Instagram. A parallel example can be like, say Xiaxue and Nuffnang, you get the point. Which makes me guess perhaps P was trying to portray that and hopefully score a deal. It's feasible if it works, after all. Plus it's not like he too far from this goal. I even saw a lady with lesser followers than his listed on the company website.

Oh well, best of luck to everyone :) And happy Jan '16 half-month!
Current Location: Hall
24 November 2015 @ 04:35 pm
I saw a performance of Red Hot Chilli Peppers quite a while back and was like, omg why is their drummer Will Ferrell lol. Turned out his name is Chad Smith and well, he's the resident drummer member basically. They look alike right?! Everyone, or enough people think so for them to even make appearances like that xD

Current Location: Hall
15 November 2015 @ 12:07 am
When you really start to look into a kpop group (Seventeen in my case) and see which members are older than you so you don't feel so weird when fandoming the group as a whole, then you realise there are none. Like not even one. Even the oldest is three fat years younger than you.

Officially a noona :O Worse, for a bunch of thirteen people, all the members =.=||

And Vernon is the second youngest. Wah.

Fortunately the host, N from VIXX, is at least two years older, if not it'll be an epic kill haha.
Current Location: Room
Current Mood: surprisedsurprised
Current Music: Mansae
14 November 2015 @ 01:11 am
Omg I love Exciting India so much! :DD
13 November 2015 @ 11:31 am
I need stories to entice me.
Nice, sweet, stories that just puts me in peace and equilibrium.
I've been watching non-fiction for too long, singing, reacts, buzzfeed human semi-fiction, documentaries etc.


12 November 2015 @ 01:05 am

I realize we are really living in a very fortunate era, where conveniece from technology and more importantly, the availability of software resources, both online and downloadable, are just freely around for us to complete almost, or all if I dare to say with enough information, every basic function we need that we once have to either purchase or go around some ways to get it.

If I needed...

To type documents and create powerpoint slides

→ now Google Docs and Slides, I can even skip Prezi already, never liked and used it.

To photoshop some pictures
→ there are online, more basic equivalents, like literally called 'Photoshop Online Free'

To get space to store our files → Dropbox, Google Drive etc.

To get workings for questions → AMAZING online algorithm sites

To find the source of pictures → Google Images is super duper

To find directions
→ I can very much rely on StreetDirectory for SG routes (although I have to admit two things: 1) still more convenient on mobile one-handheld devices i.e. smartphones only, 2) will be used effeciently only when you have a good location foundation like me :) )

To renew books
→ on that website, no physical scanning needed. Can't transmit just like that when returning though, not like i'll ask for it also.

To buy or record songs → one word: 4shared

To watch videos → plenty of streaming sites

To call
→ Skype (have to admit it's still not near the same level as actual paid calls though, and other communcation apps are more restricted to moblie one-handheld devices i.e. smartphones)

Will add more when I recall :)))

Current Location: Room.
Current Mood: gratefulgrateful
06 November 2015 @ 02:27 am

01 November 2015 @ 10:39 pm

I found out who Kim Hyun Sook is after reading a k-net comment that Min looks like her afer her weight gain.
Well in fact that topic has been on a roll with multiple/articles calling her out for no longer having a regard for her image. Objectively, it's true that her jaw line can no longer be seen. How we interpret it is then definitely based on many things.

Some things to consider are
(1) Asian context, where people on average are smaller built
(2) Celebrity context, where as a girl group member not specifically required to become larger to meet certain              requirement, e.g. comeback concept
(3) Korean context, where looks are key and may turn into overly 'strict' at times
(4) Illness context (benefit of doubt), where harsh comments, hormone imbalance from industry stress or revived        condition may have caused the change
(5) Personal context, where she decides that it's her choice to present how she's like and people should actually             accept that unless she herself doesn't like it (I actually like this possibility a lot)

So these above reasons probably makes a tie as to which side people prefer to lean on to judge.

It doesn't help that
(1) her stint on Mask Best Singer was dubbed THE WORST
(2) Miss A's discord in general paints the three members in a more negative light
(3) She's deemed ugly more than enough :(

But regardless, let's just see how and observe further. Meanwhile, can't deny there are smilarities between Min and Kim Hyun Sook. If the latter looks familiar, that's because she acted as the female lead's true friend in the movie 200 Pounds Beauty, ring a bell?

Min                                                                           Kim Hyun Sook



27 October 2015 @ 01:38 pm

I googled the word 'tired' appearing on my blog, surprisingly not much, twice.
Perhaps the search is limited, I don't know.
I tried 'sick' instead, and found out I've used it three times already just on the homepage i.e. recent entries, but that's the only thing found.

I am just damn tired and sick now tbh.
I am sick of the module. I am sick of sitting here and just, listening and watching. I'm supposed to learn but clearly inhibited by whatever I'm feeling now.
I wonder if it's because I've not had breakfast, that I've only had biscuits, or that my combination of the tight dress at the chest makes my heart pound. Or that there are no other reasons - I'm just tired.

I need to run away, go away. Leave the class because I just want to stone outside, doing nothing, but my mind can't let intercept at that moment as well.

I don't actually crave such breaks all the time, although I do remember looking forward to it every week when I was in my contract school. I loved the moments where I can sit down and chill fully during work, not like some half-assed effort at unwinding doing my own stuff amid seconds-breaks in lessons or trying to multitask.

But I will never want to go back for such minor perks, in fact they are not perks because they are not extra, they are necessary to balance the atrocity.

Now as I sit at NTU North Spine typing this, taking the short amount of time to just say something, I think about my privilege, with my Subway untouched by my side. As much as I hope this will last me for the whole day, which is unpredictable given my condition now, it's either I eat a lot or don't feel like eating much, I wonder how much lesser can other people afford. The difference is apparent in where I'm sitting, among the fast food areas where, although it is also not true because of the increasing prices in food courts in general. At this point I don't care if my thoughts are flawed, sometimes you are just too tired to catch them I suppose.

And my hands just get tired from the incorrect proportions of my hand, the chair, and the table.

But I still feel like I want to sit here, till the nights, albeit not knowing the difference nighttime can bring, and how long my arm muscles can last me. I don't feel overly cold or hot with a jacket, and that's good. But I wonder if the quieter atmosphere at night will accentuate little conversations, bringing them above the level of white noise.

Maybe I should just get that McDonalds set that I was craving yesterday night, no doubt my heart beat might very well get even faster again, from the high cholestrol or excessive tea, I don't know.

Current Location: School
Current Mood: needs deep, relaxed breathing
23 October 2015 @ 02:34 am
Not a good idea be watching a food anime at 2am with a unfilled stomach. Ate some creakers and caviar but the food looked simply so amazing. Somehow I've been really wanting to watch this, have a tab opened for it on all my devices. Chiong-ed all 12 episodes at once - 20 min 20 s in total.

Yum yum. Now can I have some too please.

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: hungryhungry